If I Ever by SE Jakes

Some ghosts refuse to stay buried...

Prophet and Tom have been through the wringer more times than they can count, both as partners in the field and in life. Yet despite it all, they’ve built something great together. But now they need to protect it again: Prophet’s old nemesis, John Morse, is back and threatening everything he loves.

Prophet is driven enough to take John down alone, and with a chance to do exactly that on the table, he runs with it, risking himself in the process. But trusting Tom to help him is so much more than mission critical.

It’s the final stand, and with Tom and his team behind him, Prophet’s in for the fight of his life. Then a figure from his past goes missing, and the consequence of an old mission rears its head. As complications and destruction mount all around them, getting out alive becomes the most important mission of their lives.

Book 4
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Reviews by the Wicked Reads Review Team

Sarah – ☆☆☆
I probably should have gone back and re-read the first three books in this series before starting this one. It’s been five years since book three was published and my recall was a bit fuzzy. It doesn’t help that readers are plunged back into Tom and Prophet’s world without the assistance of any reintroduction or recap. It took me the first fifty pages to recall the characters and series events, but this book starts fast and the pace never slows.

I realised at the halfway point that I wasn’t actually supposed to understand everything that was happening in the story. Readers understand as much as Tom does about the plans and actions of Prophet and his CIA/Special Forces teammates – and Tom isn’t privy to much. Add in the constant fear of double agents and the characters with multiple identities and I feel like I muddled through the story in a state of slightly bewildered anxiety. The action is exciting, but I was never quite sure who was doing what where.

While the relationship between Prophet and Tom has always been complicated, I really don’t remember there being quite so much violent anger between them in earlier books. I know they’ve both got issues but there are too many scenes in this book which feel more like domestic violence than rough sex. I really didn’t enjoy the mix of sex and violence. I found it difficult to believe in Prophet and Tom as partners and parents when they were unable to communicate without using their fists.

This is an action story. It’s an exciting read but some of the violence is pretty graphic and there’s a rape scene near the end which I found really disturbing. I requested this book because I remember really enjoying the first few books in this series but I’m not sure I’d read another after this one. I didn’t do well with the violence in this story, especially the sexual violence. It was difficult for me to like either Tom or Prophet by the end of the book and I don’t feel very invested in their future.

SE Jakes writes m/m romance. She believes in happy endings and fighting for what you want in both fiction and real life. She lives in New York with her family, and most days, she can be found happily writing (in bed). No really...

SE Jakes is the alter ego of New York Times bestselling paranormal and romantic suspense author Stephanie Tyler.

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Reviewers on the Wicked Reads Review Team were provided a free copy of If I Ever (Hell or High Water #4) by SE Jakes to read and review.