Sometimes
love finds you when you least expect it.
A bold and deeply emotional novel, This Is Not the End marks a new way
of looking at love, family, and happily-ever-after.
Zacary Trevor is the love of Anya Alexander’s life. Their sometimes tumultuous
marriage has survived ups, downs, and all the in-betweens. With successful
careers, a lovely home, and a beautiful child, domestic bliss is a hard-earned
reality for two people whose hedonistic days are in the not-so-distant past.
They’re happy.
Enter Zac’s best friend, the deeply reserved Cal Keller. Zac’s friendship with
Cal is the foundation of his career and—until Anya and their son came along—the
most important relationship of his life. Cal’s a cipher, someone Anya can’t
help but gravitate to, even if they don’t always get along. Even more, she’s
drawn to the Zac she sees when he’s with Cal—a careful, cautious version of her
husband, someone with hidden thoughts and desires kept secret even from her.
Inviting Cal into their home, deeper into their life, is a risk.
Zac should say no. He knows he should. But he doesn’t. From the first, the hint
at the life the three of them could have together is exhilarating. And finding
a new definition for family just might be worth the risk to every bond that
exists between them.
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On Friday night, Anya makes a veritable vat of her low-calorie beef bourguignon so there will be plenty of leftovers, and the kitchen smells rich and warm by the time the doorbell rings.
Zac is slumped at the breakfast bar fiddling on his phone, but he jumps up at the sound, bouncing like his legs have turned to pogo sticks, as if he didn’t see Cal a few hours ago. They recorded a rough cut of the first song from the new album this week, and it seems like every other word out of his mouth is about work. It’s all Cal this and Cal that, and Can Cal come over for dinner? I have a few things I want to go over with him and this way he won’t be miserable that he has to talk on the phone like a normal person.
She agreed, mostly to make Zac happy, but also a little because she’s curious to observe Cal for a bit, now that she knows he has hidden depths.
Zac kisses Anya on the cheek, telling her, “You smell good,” before turning to go answer the door.
“He used to use his key before I came along, didn’t he?” she asks, before he can leave.
Zac winces. “Yes?”
“More of the patented Cal Keller respect program, I suppose.”
Zac drums his fingers on his belly for a second. “The stew smells delicious.”
“Oh, go away, you jerk.”
He grins at her as he leaves, and a moment later, she can hear them talking in the entryway about something that happened at the studio earlier, their voices deep and soft, and Zac laughs at whatever Cal says.
She opens a bottle of wine and makes a pitcher of ice water with lemon. She hesitates, wondering if she should offer something else to drink. She’s not sure what Cal will prefer. He’s come over for dinner dozens of times, and he’s expressed so few opinions that she’s still not sure of his preferences. She only knew about his dislike for green peppers because Zac mentioned it.
That might be the most Cal thing about Cal—that she’s been the wife of the most important person in his life for almost three years now, and no matter the overtures she makes (and there have been more than a few over that span of time) they remain merely acquaintances.
It occurs to her that maybe he simply doesn’t like her.
It’s possible. She’s strong-willed and direct. She’s gotten a lot of flak about that over the years, starting in her modeling days, and continuing into the present; there’s nothing that society hates worse than a woman who dismisses the importance of others’ approval. She curses, she drinks and she smokes pot (not lately, of course, because she was carrying and then breastfeeding PJ, although if there’s ever been a daily activity that called for chemical relaxation on a regular basis, it’s motherhood). She speaks her mind and argues, she gets angry when she wants to, she’s fucked a lot of men, and on a couple of occasions, she didn’t even know their names. She’s fine with these things, but more than a few people have turned their noses up at her over the years.
Never mind that she doesn’t do a damn thing that her husband doesn’t do, and there have been whole magazine spreads about how great he is, praising his raw, masculine strength and his creative “passions.” She rolls her eyes at the thought. She doesn’t expect people to let her get away with bad behavior, but there’s a difference between bad behavior and unladylike behavior, and while she doesn’t mind being called out for the first, anyone who has a problem with the second can choke on it.
She can see how someone like Cal, someone with a wholesome, old-fashioned way of viewing the world, would find her lacking.
But at the same time, it doesn’t really fit. He’s never been anything but perfectly gracious with her. From the first time they met, not a single one of his smiles has ever struck her as forced, and he doesn’t avoid her, doesn’t look for opportunities to see Zac in her absence. He’s told her more than once that he can see how much happier Zac is now that she’s in his life, that he’s glad that Zac has her, and he legitimately seems to mean it.
No. She knows she can be divisive, but whatever this thing with Cal is, this barrier between them, it isn’t that he disapproves of her.
Sarah – ☆☆☆☆☆
This is a beautiful and insanely sexy poly romance. On the surface, Zac and
Anya are a slightly cliché rock star/model couple that I really wanted to hate.
But they’re wonderful. Slightly wild, highly entertaining, and the best of
friends, Zac and Anya are total relationship goals. But their marriage altered
Zac’s relationship with Cal, his best friend and bandmate. This is the story of
Zac, Anya, and Cal working to repair the rift between Cal and Zac while finding
a place for each of them in a new relationship.
Even though this book is sexy enough to tip into erotica at points, it is very
definitely a polyamourous love story, not m/m/f ménage erotica. All three
characters are complex and beautifully human. Cal and Zac shared their music
and their lives long before Zac met Anya, and the connection between the two
men is electric. Anya is strong and confident – and she’s the one who helps
both men open their mind to new possibilities.
It was Cal who stole my heart in this story. His past is dark, his demons are
strong, and he struggles to love himself. Zac and Anya fight to convince Cal
he’s worth loving, that he deserves a family and a home. And this is a book
about consciously building a family and a home.
I really loved this book. The characters are wonderful, the writing is
excellent, and the relationship that grows between Zac, Cal, and Anya is
beautiful.
Ruthie – ☆☆☆☆
As I started this book, I was a little surprised at the somewhat fiery
relationship that Zac and Anya seemed to have – but it soon evened out to be
normal, and I completely loved how they behaved together. Understanding their
lifestyle, their past, and the pressures that they inevitably faced in the
outside world made all the difference in the world.
Zac’s bandmate and very best friend, Cal, has had a strained relationship with
Anya. After all, until she met Zac, they were always together. And now they
also have a son, PJ (wait until you find out what that stands for!). I love how
we grow to understand the quiet way Cal lives and why. I loved learning how
things could change in the future, if only he can see his way to it – and how
they have every intention of supporting him. It is such a great way of bringing
us to the point that we can see how the dynamics of a possible trio could be.
Getting the buy in from Cal, the levelling of all three of them so that they
are all equal in the relationship is important to me and works really well
here.
I really, really enjoyed this book and will definitely be reading more by this
talented author.
SIDNEY
BELL lives in Colorado with her amazingly supportive husband. She received her
MFA degree in Creative Writing in 2010, considered aiming for the Great
American Novel, and then promptly started writing fanfiction instead. More
realistic grown-ups eventually convinced her to try writing something more
fiscally responsible, though, which is how we ended up here. When she’s not
writing, she’s playing violent video games, yelling at the television during
hockey games, or supporting her local library by turning books in late.
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